a day before my 2nd last exam

it's engineers and society exam tmr..
my 2nd last paper... haha.. i hope i can manage it.. tho i hv been slacking for the past few days. sleeping of hours of time where i shud b mugging/memorizing the books..

i always wonder. what is the point of having us university students vomiting out what we have been memorizing for the exam? what is the point of having us being like robots, churning out perfect textbook answers.. time and again?
what is the point?
what is the point of education?
to educate, to enlighten, to lead one into more knowledge so to speak.
For me, I think education is more about the latter, to lead someone to learn. I realized that a lot of useful stuff are not learnt from textbooks, rather by books, info off the net and even the discovery channel. Education is about teaching someone to think critically, not being parrots of what is written on paper.
It is difficult. education is a awful, pressurizing matter, that is why I do not want to be a teacher. the responsibility is too much. a person's future thrust into your hands, how terrible can that be?
people now are too complacent. for one thing. i m getting too complacent. expect everything to be laid nicely in front of me. this defeats the purpose of life isn't it? Life should be an endless pursuit, no final destination but the processs of it that moulds one character and the experiences that would let one feel that it was not a life wasted.
education nowadays is kinda political, a child since born is thrown into a factory that makes them into a bolt or nut of the ever growing industry.
i guess asking anyone on the street: why do you study?
the answer would be: so I can find a job.
so why do a person finds a job?
so that the person can earn money.
so education is about making money?
work is all about making money?

i'm clueless.
just daunting to think that I would be one of the bearings that churn out money so that I could live.
but there is more to life that this, right?

*i guess when I start work next year, I would not be saying such childish stuff. I will be packaging my resume, trying to make some company think it is worth hiring me, trying to fit into a company, trying to run the rat race. For what purpose? To make more money.*

*in a few days, 2 of my secondary school mates would be getting married. wow. can't imagine that.. but I do admire them making such a big decision at such a young age while I m still building sandcastles by the seaside. hehe*

oooo... meaningless exams...

meaningless
meaningless.....
wth.
got 4.5 for writing for mi GRE which totally, absolutely made my previous effort to score in verbal and quantitative vanish into nothing.
have no confidence to apply for grad sch now.
results like sh*t. what i can do.. :S
sigh
i know people to change but i didn't expect myself to change so much
giving myself too much pressure?
hmn. maybe not. i m such a person who strives to gratify myself. *snicker*

so easy to say 'i give up'
especially to requirements set by myself
to my goals
my dreams.
just dot the tiny period
.
I give up